It has been a long week. I cry every day at one point.. a wave comes over me and I wish I can hold my sweet boys face just one more time. But, it is getting easier. It does get easier, sometimes it takes a while, sometimes you just cry so much in the beginning that you are cried out. Now when a few tears flow, it is usually involved with a smile.
My Maggie is lost…. She wanders.. I had her outside in the backyard on Friday while we were cleaning out our pond and she picked up one of Franklin’s squeaky toys and wandered into the house holding it in her mouth. After about 5 minutes she came back outside with it still in her mouth. She’s looking for him.
Thursday night was terrible. You wonder what goes on in these furbabies minds. She was lying on her bed on my side of the bed.. I patted my bed and said.. “Come on Maggie.. wanna snuggle?” She got up, ignored me, walked around my bed.. and went over to Franklin’s bed. She laid down on it and whined.
Well of course, you know what happened next.. I lost it.. blubbering idiot again… Told my sweetie what happened… well.. you know what happened next… another blubbering idiot!!!
Friday night I had a little bit of peace… funny, and yes I could be obsessed, weird, crazy dog lady.. or just call me a “UWDL” (Undeniable Weird Dog Lover) but like I said, I was kneeling down to sniff Franklin’s scent and say good night.. and what was lying on the carpet to the left of his bed, right where his head usually pointed.. was a white feather! If you know anything about the “white feathers when someone passes” legend.. well, I instantly knew that my sweet boy was A-OKAY!! He wasn’t hurting, he was having a good time and he was watching out for me. I believe he sent a sign that he was okay and he was good with our decision.
Decision you ask? Well… after Maggie’s moment… on Friday morning.. I called the breeder in Sarnia. We ended up going on a road trip on Monday morning. Yup.. we will have a new addition to the family in mid-June. I am NOT replacing Franklin, no one can. I know that some people will raise an eyebrow and think.. “oh, so soon for a pup!” and others, like my boss will ask… “what took you so long?” We are dog people.. always will be and I believe that Maggie needs another pack member.. she is not meant to be a lone dog. She can help train this one.. she is very motherly.. constantly licked Diesel’s and Franklin’s faces when they were here.. . So we will take this slow.. hopefully she will accept him.. and get a bit of a sparkle back in her eye.. Someone once told me here in one of the posts that puppies bring happiness….
So.. ladies, gents, and tripawds…. Meet Winston……
