So many emotions are happening at this time of year for me..
I am very busy with Christmas craft shows with my handmade goats milk soap, bath and body products which does not leave me much time to myself.!! Lol Although I do know that every year I will be busy at this time, it still jumps up and smacks me occasionally to shake things up.
Because of the crazy whirlwind that I am in right now, I haven’t been spending much time in here.. I haven’t been in to Chat in ages cause I just don’t have the time to spend chatting. I need to wrap soap, make body butters and sugar scrubs!!! Work! Work! Work!! Lol
It’s coming up to that one year mark… on November 22nd, it will be one year since I found Tripawds. My very first post was on November 22, 2012. It has been one year since we were chatting about what to do with Franklin, to amputate? Or not to amputate?
It’s been one year since September really, since we found out that my sweet boy had cancer… WTF has that year gone? I can’t believe it has been one year… some days it feels like it was just last month that we lost him.. and that it was just a few months ago since his amputation.
I broke down yesterday and last night… I was driving down to a greenhouse to set up my soap for a craft show on the weekend at lunch time and I was driving down the road that I normally go to go to the vets office. I lost it as I was driving. Just a sudden wave came over me and I burst into tears.. Okay.. it was more like a tsunami, I will admit it. I had to pull over.. Here I am, in my car, on the side of the road.. and NO KLEENEX!!! Using my sleeve to wipe my eyes, and my nose. Needless to say I had to do laundry when I got home. But I think it was just remembering how many times I drove down that road with Franklin and his head out the window, with four legs and three legs… and how he loved the wind in his face.. YUP.. I lost it..
Perhaps it was Franklin racing through my heart at that time, telling me that he was with me on that ride.. and I was just overwhelmed with love and sadness that I could not catch him at that moment to hug him tight. Maybe that is what it was.. Maybe.
I get to drive down that road again today since the doggers have a 5:15 vet appointment. Wilson needs his bordatella shot and Maggie has a large lump on her side and on her front right paw that I want checked out. Call me crazy, but my gut instinct tells me that something is going on with Maggie… Her hair for one thing… it’s not soft and silky the way it used to be… nor is it growing in long, or full the way it used to.. Her hair is looking like Franklin’s did when he had the cancer. Whispy, thin and bare. Just a little voice in the back of my head that says.. get this checked out… hmmmmmm….
Some recent pictures of our runs in the meadow… I’m so proud of him with his recall.. we have had a few meetings with other doggies and he plays and chases after them.. but when I call him.. he comes right back!! Good Boy Wilson!!
Bark atcha later
Franklin will always be in your heart and sometimes the feelings in our heart are definitely shown through our tears!
Hugs to you today and good luck with your visit to the vet.
Linda and Tucker
You need to break down and just cry and sob sometimes! It’ll take you when you least expect it. A dog loved that much will still bringyou sad tears AND he will still bring you happy tears!
And he’ll bringyou weird things like Mr Wilson! Just kidding Wilson:-) 🙂
Anytime you lose a loved one, the holidays pretty much suck. It can be a very cruel time for so many.
I knw that Frank n’ Farter will be with you though………Somebody has to teach Mr. Wilson how to rip open presents!!
Take it easy on yourself Christine. You have a lotonyou right now. On top of that, your emotio s are still so raw.
On top of that, you might catch cold from all that snot you blew into your sleeve!!:-) 🙂
We love you Chrisrine….you and Frank n’ Farter, Mr. Wilson and Maggie (paws crossed for Maggie)! And, of course Fred and “MoomSon”! Just curious…..does Fred come toyou as quickly as Wilson when you call him!!?
Hugs and love to you!
Sally and Hapy Hannan
Christine,
Losing someone you love is hard, even harder this time of the year. Many thoughts and memories, let the ones that make you smile and laugh come through. They are the balancers that carry us through.
It’s a busy time of the year sometimes so that we forget to take care of ourselves, don’t forget you. Your important.
Esther and her Snoop
Christine-
For some reason driving past the vet’s office must be an emotional thing. I still look the other direction when I go by and really dread when the other kids have to go in for their shots as I haven’t been there since the week after Shooter died.
I am saying pawsitive prayers for Maggie. It just would not be fair for you to have this happen again.
Wilson looks great and he is growing up so quickly. Give him and Maggie hugs from all of us.
Take care-
Luanne & Spirit Shooter