It’s funny looking back.. at the posts this time last year… funny really isn’t the right word…. but you know what I mean….
April 23, 2013 read….. ” today… and the last few weeks haven’t been that great. :O( I’m seeing a decline…”
And yet one year later… April 23, 2014, we are celebrating a one year birthday of “Wilson Wigglebutt”. It is true… there are still many, many good things ahead to look forward to.. even if our hearts are breaking and we think in our heads that we just cannot go on… that is how I felt.. and I won’t lie to you and say I don’t feel that way anymore… I have my days.. and on those days.. It feels like it was just last week.. not 11 1/2 months ago that Franklin left us.
And to think that Wilson was born on the day I blogged about my Franklin declining….. Things work in mysterious ways. What is funny though, is that when I was online looking at the littler of pups.. Wilson’s picture was there.. and I thought.. “oh.. he is a cutie.. we should get him”. But… I didn’t want a puppy too soon with Franklin not doing well..and I was hoping that Franklin would have made it through a nice warm summer on the deck. And everytime I went back to check that website… no one had bought Wilson (otherwise known as Tricolour Male Pup #4). When we let Franklin go.. and I called the breeder 2 days later.. he was still available… yup.. things work in mysterious ways.
I can’t believe it has almost been a year…. And I still have not dreamt of him… :O(
I think that is what upsets me the most sometimes…. I wish he would come to me so I could hug him again.. stroke his head and plant a big huge kiss on this brow right between those big brown eyes… maybe I just wish too hard sometimes.. it will happen eventually, or maybe it won’t. He never was really good on the recall off leash!! He used to get a talking to when he wouldn’t come when called.. I guess I will have to do that when I arrive at the Bridge as well!! lol
Maybe it is because I can feel him so strong in my heart that he knows I am okay… maybe.
We are coming up to the one year mark big guy…. we all love you fiercely and miss you terribly….
bark atcha later
((( hugs)))) I know that feeling….looking back on the day/year/whatever. I have a “timehop” app on my iPhone. Every day it refreshes to tell me what I was posting/tweeting the year before. Almost every single one in the last 2 weeks has had something to do with Shelby. The hardest ones are the ones that are right around this time last year – 2 months prior to her breaking her leg. She was so fine. Everything was great. We were happy and healthy. I can beat myself up about letting her jump into that car and break that leg in the first place OR I can try and accept that perhaps that was what better prepared us for what was yet to come. .. Lots of love your way. I love that photo~!
((((((((((Chris))))))))))) I can’t believe its been almost a year that Franklin has been gone. I think God works in mysterious ways. I have only dreamed of Sassy 1 time. Maybe it was just her way. It could be that I want it too much. Either way Franklin & Sassy both know the love in our hearts for them. I know you have seen signs of him though remember the feather??? He let you know. Watch for the others (sometimes we get too busy to just relax & look). I know I do. Always on the go with 3 dogs now. Thinking of you & your pack and do not beat yourself up. We just can not do that.
Hugs my friend & love
Michelle & Angel Sassy Sugar Bear
Awww chris. I can so relate to this in so many ways. I definitely think our new additions were meant to be.. And there will always be that hole in our hearts. I am a very very vivid dreamer, and only once can I really recall having a dream of Chuck. After my mom passed it was years until I hada dream of her. It made me sad because my brothers and sisters always seem to. My husband dreams of Chuck regularly. Sigh. So I so get that desire. I can say that when they did show up in my dreams, they did for a good reason. Like, the night I dreamt of Chuck, the next day his brothers dad called me to tell me his brother had just been dxd with osa too. Sort of my way of believing he’s still with us.
When we got Betsy, the night we brought her home, I was looking through her paperwork, and her birthday listed was the same as my mom’s. 😉 my signs aren’t often but when they are they are that much more special. Hang in there Chris! I love the pics of your babies on fb 🙂 Wilson looks like he’s making quite a special place in your heart too 😀
Many hugs,
Lori and the family
Christine-
It’s OK not to dream about him (Shooter is way too busy to do that). Like Michelle said – the signs have come to you in a different way. I think that everytime a memory pops into your head they are there reminding you of all they were.
Wilson is a gift from Franklin – look at how he makes you smile!
It’s ok to go on with life. We’ve all done it, but this portion of our life was so life changing it has become a deep part of us.
Best to you and the pack-
Luanne and Spirit Shooter
We miss him too, he was such a presence here but you know what? That feeling in your heart, that means he IS here, Franklin hasn’t gone anywhere, his spirit has just changed form and he’s even greater in love and light than ever before.
I do think that the Universe always has plans for us, it was meant to be with Wilson, that much is clear.
{{{{hugs}}}}}